Filed under: God Speaks, The Straw that breaks the camel's back, Uncategorized | Tags: forgiveness, forgiveness and God, how to forgive repeatedly, how to handle anger and vengeance, The Straw that breaks the camel's back, why we should forgive
I am sure many have experienced this before. In my case, my experience with a certain person … P for pain…. had given me so much grief. P had subjected me to severe trials. God said to forgive… so I did. Unlike previous P’s, God tested me further. Where I parted ways with most other Ps I continued allowing this last one to have a place in my life. Needless to say there was more pain. God said to forgive, so I did. I dared not disobey. Jesus did say seventy times seven times right?
It did not even need seven times. The last straw came and it was a straw. Compared to the previous transgressions, this last one was minor. But it was as if I have had enough. I was through.
It was so bad that as I reflect on my walk this past year, I saw that it had separated me from my God. Very much like Eve in the garden of Eden, when she recognised her nakedness and shame, and hid, I too was hiding from God. Hmmm perhaps that’s not a good analogy. I was more like Jonah, refusing to preach to Nineveh. I wanted to run away from God because I knew what God wanted and I was not prepared to give it to him or P.
Foolish? Surely so. I am usually Ms Pragmatism. I know that not to forgive causes more harm to me than to P. So what’s holding me back from setting myself free? After all I have been sorely tested so many times in the area of forgiveness. Each time all I needed was to ask for the grace to forgive and it happened. So why am I allowing a straw to break my back, and possible sever my relationship with God? The price to pay to hold on to anger and hurt does not commensurate with the “joy” of bearing a grudge. I mean, who in her right senses want to dwell in bitterness, when we can bask in love, joy and peace?
I cannot understand this. Pastor Derek in one of his sermons mentioned the fact that we have the power to forgive and withhold forgiveness… i just cannot find that passage. It is a familiar passage that has baffled me. Can it be that if i do not forgive, God does not forgive that person too? Could that be the reason some of us hold on to unforgiveness? to ensure that the sinner does not get liberation? I do not understand.
But i do know that Jesus said that we will be forgiven as we forgive. That alone is incentive enough surely, especially when we weigh the length of time on earth with eternity? I do not know about you, but i do not want to spend eternity in damnation because i indulged in my human emotions of vengeance and anger.
So the question remains… why is it that a straw is capable of breaking a camel’s back? Then it dawned on me. A straw will not break a camel’s back if the burdens of the past have been delivered to the destination. And if a straw is seemingly breaking our back could it be that we have not really cleansed ourselves from previous hurts but instead have kept them in our emotional store rooms, only to bring out and carried when a new hurt comes along.
Do i make sense? If so, then the only true liberation is thorough spring cleaning – not only when new year swings by, but constantly. That way, no straw … replace that with trivial matters… can ever break our relationship with God.
Filed under: God Speaks | Tags: cancer, christ as a bridegroom, debbielim, God and healing, healing, in sickness and in health, Jesus, joy of God, leukaemia, marriage, marriage vow, peace, sickness, strength for the terminally ill, support from spouse
If we liken our relationship with Christ as a marriage, then the inevitable line to the marriage vow… in sickness and in health comes to mind. And yet, I know that for myself, and probably for countless others, as a young starry-eyed bride, sickness and suffering was far from my mind.
Isn’t that also true with our relationship with our Lord? While we can expect disappointments from our husbands… for after all, he is but human, we want our divine husband to ensure a life sheltered from sorrow and disease. He is divine after all… and is such a request so unreasonable?
While we need faith and we must understand the importance of rebuking the third party in this marriage.- the ever-tempting devil, the conditions of this fallen world will present road blocks. It is in the face of such roadblocks that, like in our physical marital relationships, our spiritual marriage is sorely tested.
I too once wondered how a good heavenly Father, and a divine Husband, not to mention a perfect Counsellor could allow sickness to befall me, promise me healing, yet I still face the challenges today. I wondered why the people closest to me has betrayed and rejected me countless times. I wondered why the family of God seemed more treacherous than my other- worldly friends. If you guys want answers, I am sorry, I have none.
But as I watch good friends struggle, Daphne you come in mind, as do you Debbie, as I recall how Joyce died with praises on her lips, I begin to understand that this vow we made is applicable to our relationship with our Lord. We believe in healing, yes, but more importantly we thank God for our eternal marriage. We have divine hope yes, but we must understand that hope is most needed in the face or apparent despair. The devil can try to break our marriage with our Lord through sickness, through broken human relationships, through poverty… but he will fail if we allow God to fill us with love, joy and peace despite all the challenges that face us. A tall order? This is where an almighty God through his grace can help us. For people going through challenges, we tend to prescribe to God what the desired solutions are… God make her well, God give her a new job, God save this marriage. I propose that while the above are good and faith building, when friends are facing dire circumstances our prayers should include granting them peace that passes understanding, joy that will bring healing, and love that will conquer all.
I know I need such prayers too.
This song is for all of us, and the spouse in our lives who we need and to whom we are so grateful.
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: comedy, comedy in real life, locked in a room, sarah tsang
This is too funny not to post…
Scene 1: we realise our plight
-Amirah gets up from her seat.
Amirah (in a happy way): I need to pee pee! I shall go peeee!
-She tries to open the door but it’s stuck.
Amirah (in a confused way): How come cannot open? -uses more strength- eh Sarah, how come the door cannot open.
Me (acting all smart): oh that happened before. dunno must just keep trying. don’t use so much force, come i try.
-i try to open the door GENTLY, but to no avail
Me: hehe amirah.. we’re stuck. are you very urgent?
Amirah: huh.. not really, but.. i would love to pee (LOL)
Scene 2: we call for backup
(note, at this moment we are running around like headless chickens randomly shouting “we’re gonna die” and “i need to pee”)
-we use msn to call FANGHAO but he just laughs at us.
fanghao: pee in a bottle la
amirah: i got no cock la (LOL)
-we use msn to call kian lin and he very helpfully comes over
-but he is very unhelpful in getting us out. instead he helps us call the “faulty officers”
kian lin: okay you guys just stay put, i’m going back to my room. this is damn funny
us: WE HAVE NO WHERE ELSE TO GOOOOO
-at this point i realise i also have to pee. amirah and i conclude that the room is taking revenge on us for not spending enough roomie time. so we decide the best solution is to sit down and play taptap.
Scene 3: we are saved!!!
kenn, kenneth, kenneth’s girlfriend, andreas and the faulty officers arrive
-kenn was very helpfully trying to tell us what to do but we weren’t able to follow his orders
-the rest of them stand in the background, laughing at us
(SO MEAN LA. SO HAPPY WHEN WE ARE GOING TO DIE)
-especially andreas! WE COULD SEE HIM SMILING THROUGH OUR PEEPHOLE.
-kenneth did try to make himself useful by roaring at the door. but that obviously didn’t help nothin’.
-suddenly the faulty officers climb in through the window (they very brave!)
-they fiddle with the door and one of the faulty officers uses MY VERY AWESOME SWISS ARMY KNIFE and miraculously the door swings open!!
-cheers spring from the room “YAYY WE ARE FREE. WE CAN GO PEE NOW!”
me: you guys want to eat pringles?
faulty officer: waaa. you very bad. i save you then you offer THEM pringles
kenn (VERY UNHELPFULLY): ya uncle i think you should lock them back inside the room
-haha anyway amirah and i rushed off to go pee. the officer was teaching them how they can use the swiss army knife to open the door but he had cut his finger so i whipped out my SNOOPY PLASTER
at which everyone was super amused.
amirah and i conclude that this was all a conspiracy between kenneth and andreas in an attempt to eliminate the best roomies.
BUT WE WON WE WONN WE ARE FREEE
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
Debbie and Winston are friends from my fist church. I do not know what it is about first churches… its almost like family somehow. And though i have left that church many years now, the people there have a special special place in my heart.
Debbie has a history of lupus. But recently she is diagnosed with leukaemia. Do visit their blog, and offer a prayer at the very least.
www.debbielim.to
Filed under: Rambling | Tags: Ecclesiastes, Michael Jackson, MJ, This is it
Wah did not realise its been such a long time! Was without internet for a long long time and then sort of lost interest in blogging. Anyway here goes my first post in months!
I was watching MJ This Is IT movie yesterday and I was awestruck. This man knew his music. This man knew how to perform. This man was big enough to share his stage. This man was no prima donna. This man had the groove, had the rhythm. This man had amazing talent.
As I watched, apart from total admiration for his genius, I felt a sorrow. This man had so much to give. I could not help thinking of his wasted life. Perhaps true genius comes packaged with eccentricities. But the life he led, surrounded by scandals and accusations how happy could he have been? He showed every insecurity and lack of confidence particularly in the way he looked. I was no MJ fan and usually just gave a cursory glance to whatever news reported. So perhaps its presumptuous of me but to me his life was a sad one. Sure he had all the trappings that wealth could buy. But to what end?
It highlights to me yet again the importance of the spiritual dimension. It reminds me of the book of Ecclesiastes.
10 I denied myself nothing my eyes desired;
I refused my heart no pleasure.
My heart took delight in all my work,
and this was the reward for all my labor.
11 Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done
and what I had toiled to achieve,
everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind;
nothing was gained under the sun.
A chasing after the wind. The only stability that is meaningful and eternal is that found in God. I am no holy moly and am struggling, even right now with issues of faith. But MJ and others like him remind me how meaningless life really is if not for eternity.
MJ you were awesome. Your talents and gifts were undeniable. May you leave not just a legacy of music but may your life and struggles leave a reminder of the emptiness of life without God and His Salvation.
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: AWARE Singapore, Cheryl Ng, CSE, Sin Boon Ann, Straits Times
My sentiments exactly! Well said. Except the part of regulated press perhaps …
Social Cohesion
13. Sir, economic progress and prosperity will not mean much to our country if
we are not able to maintain our social cohesion. That ours is a fragile democracy
of many interest groups is a constant reminder to all of us to be mindful of the
need to preserve our national unity through civil discourse and mutual respect of
views, even if these are not necessarily shared by all. More importantly our social
cohesion must also be founded on the key values that our society has come to
embrace; values that define who we are and what we stand for as a people.
14. The recent incident involving the takeover of AWARE by a group of
concerned Singaporeans demonstrates how fragile our society is. For a brief
period of time, our nation was on the boil. What turned out to be a relatively
simple and lawful act of democracy suddenly turned into a deeply polarized and
heated debate between the Christian Right and the homosexual and lesbian interest
groups. The spotlight was quick to focus on a few key groups, rightly or wrongly;
namely the Church, as seen to be represented by supposed usurpers, the old
leadership who were seen to champion the rights of the homosexuals and the
lesbians in Singapore, the Ministry of Education who denied all knowledge of the
instructor’s manual for the Comprehensive Sexual Education (CSE) in schools run
by AWARE, and of course the press.
15. Sir, I do not intend to go into the rights and wrongs of the way in which a
group of concerned ladies decided take over the leadership of a voluntary welfare
organization, save to say that I find it odd that democracy suddenly takes on a very
different meaning when a group of new members decide to legitimately contest in
an election to determine a new agenda. I also find it odd that many of the members
who did not bother even to attend the most important meeting in the year to elect a
new leadership should now decide to raise a howl of protest after the event. If
they, meaning the older members, were that concerned in the first place, I believe
they should have taken a more active role in the affairs of the organization.
Perhaps, AWARE should have been more selective of its membership? The
question of who should be given the right to vote has deep philosophical
implications that would be applicable not only to AWARE, but for Singapore as
well.
Role of the Media
16. Of the few protagonists involved in the saga, I would like to mention the role
of the press in reporting this spat. One self evident condition of a free press in a
democracy is the need to be responsible, impartial and to present the facts as
neutrally and objectively to the readers. One wonders whether the press can be
truly called upon to discharge that duty when some of its own members feel rather
passionately about the issues in the public domain. The recent saga surrounding
AWARE is one but one example. I will quote one email that I received from one
Cheryl Ng. I must add that I do not know Ms Ng and I have not verified the
substance of her email. However, I would say that I would not be surprised if it
were true and would be very concerned if it is. Her email reads:
“I’m also surprised and deeply troubled that the reporting in The Straits
Times has not been honest in presenting the full picture to the public,
especially concerned parents following the AWARE saga. There was a
concerted effort by both the press and TV coverage not to mention the
significant presence of the homosexual community. If I had not been there, I
would never have known the truth.
a) In fact, I witnessed the main reporter responsible for blowing up
the whole AWARE story….hobnobbing with the homosexual fraternity at the
EGM.
b) Some members of the press and TV were candidly jubilant as
they celebrated the passing of the ‘no confidence’ vote by punching their
fists in the air and hugging the ‘old guard’ they were standing with.
c) In the sweep of fervent support, the constitutional amendments
were also made to allow men and foreign women full voting rights (in a local
women’s association that makes the CEDAW report on the state of women
in Singapore). In the perspective that such an amendment was thrown out
in the previous AGM, the motives may be called into question. The press
made no mention of this important development.
I question the cover-up in the press.
In review of newspaper coverage of AWARE developments, I’m also
beginning to think that press focus on the sensitive issue of religious
involvement was but a calculated red herring thrown out to manipulate
public sentiments.
Sir, I am pleading for the authorities to look into this matter as I am
becoming increasingly alarmed that minority groups with a political agenda
may not have just reached its grasp into a vulnerable women’s group, and
through it attempt to distort our children’s views on sexuality, but has
actually infiltrated the press to block out news and prevent the public from
accessing the truth. I actually feel frightened that the press in Singapore can
attempt to shape my views as it wishes by misinformation or partial
information”
17. The accusations brought up by Ms Ng have once again raised the question of
whether there should ever be an unregulated press. In reporting the matter, the
editors and journalists could have looked at the issue as one of the conservative
group in our society taking on the liberals rather than be quick to frame this in the
context of the Christian Right against the homosexuals and the lesbians. True,
many of the ladies came from the same church. However, the same may be said of
any group who comes from any organization. But that alone does not mean that
they represent the organization. I do wonder if the press would have been so quick
on the take if it were women from another faith who took up the cause instead. It
is unfortunate that by framing this episode as one that carries a religions
undertone, the whole debate deeply polarized our society very quickly.
18. Apart from the press, the education ministry in the early days of the AWARE
leadership struggle has maintained consistently that they did not look into this
matter as no complaint was made by any parent. Not surprisingly, what followed
was a deluge of complaints from parents which then prompted an investigation by
the ministry. The outcome was an implicit acceptance of the serious nature of the
allegations against the CSE programmes run by AWARE. I am grateful to note the
ministry has now tightened the procedures on the appointment of course providers
in the area of sexuality education.
19. The AWARE saga is as much about the kind of values we want to promote in
our society as it is about leadership struggle. To build a socially cohesive society,
all interest groups must recognize and accept the fundamental building blocks of
our society that have come to represent our values on families and relationships.
Our values change if at all by evolution than by revolution. Aggressive
proselytisation by fringe groups, whether carried out by insidious means or
otherwise, will only invite a backlash from mainstream society. This is not how
our society should be run. Social cohesion requires the active participation of all.
In this particular episode, one wonders if the education ministry had taken a more
proactive stand in the first place by being more vigilant, the leadership struggle
and the ensuing polarization of our community would not have taken place in the
manner that it did. The question that some have asked is whether a formal
complaint must be made from someone before the ministry will act on a matter
which it has heard about and which comes under its purview. Displaying
annoyance at being dragged into the sorry saga does not help with the confidence
recovery process in the aftermath.
20. Sir, we have done extremely well as a country over the years; and I can say
with great confidence that we will continue to do well in the years to come. The
President’s speech for the new session of Parliament has done much to reinforce
that confidence. The question is not whether we will do well, but how much better
we will do. I strongly believe that if we are able to pull together and collectively
work at overcoming the challenges that lie before us, there will always be a clear
blue sky with a rainbow spanning over it for Singapore. With that Sir, I join my
colleagues in thanking the President for his speech.
21. Thank you.
Sin Boon Ann
Filed under: Concluding Words on AWARE
There once was a lady. She was extremely concerned in what she perceived to be wrong and harmful teaching on sex for early teenagers. She brought her concerns to her family members, to ladies in her religious group. Many were similarly concerned – so they decided to do something about it – they decided to quietly garner more support, via emails, register as members in the relatively small organisation which was promoting this programme, swelling the membership by an extraordinary no, which somehow escaped the notice of the old timers, and voted people who are like-minded in. This writer is not part of this group – she is simply summarising what she gathered from the ground.
Come AGM, and the oldtimers were horrified. There was a coup they say. They were outraged, The group is trying to promote their religious beliefs they say. What is the stand on homosexuality was the first question they asked. Even people from the same religious group – group – not church, were upset. How can we be so high-handed they say? Jesus loved all, they say. We should be tolerant. They forget that Jesus threw out traders from outside the temple – calling them thieves. They forget that Jesus forgave the prostitute, but told her to sin no more. They forget Jesus loves all, but shows no tolerance to sin. This writer is not part of either group.
Then there is the press. They too were vocally upset. Hey, some of these people are our friends. How could they treat our friends this way? I am generalising of course. There began a series of the most biased reports I have read in recent times – this is my opinion – not a statement of fact. After all, it’s religious fanatics trying to promote their beliefs through a secular organisation. I wonder if people understand that when we wish to garner support, we go to people who are like-minded, and part of our social network. How is it surprising that the committee consists of people from the same, very large church? I am not from the press, nor from that church.
Then CSE was challenged. MOE was queried. So MOE spokesman said there was no complaint about the CSE. I am not from MOE. The CSE’s instructor’s manual was posted online.
It was not as neutral or as scientific as it was made out to be. Amongst other things were statements like anal sex can be healthy. Healthy!! Pre-marital sex is neutral. Incidentally, these were taught to minors with whom it is illegal to have sexual intercourse. Parents were outraged – I am part of this group.
In the meantime, the Reds were soundly lambasted for the way they gained support. It is unfair, it is a coup. They sent emails to their friends and parents of their children’s friends. Private emails found their way into the intricate web. The Whites had to defend their post. After all, its double tit for a solitary tat – we need to regain ground. So they wrote passionately, they set up online petitions, they appealed for people to join AWARE and to support their vote of no confidence proposed. There fury, their insults were somehow seen as noble. They are whites after all. They seem to have a right to flaunt private emails on the web. Can you figure that out?
Come EGM – the Reds were jeered when they spoke. The Whites were cheered. It was move over you upstarts – let us take charge. The membership had swollen to an amazing 3000. I wonder how many will stay to make a difference after this.
But one thing I do know. I thank Josie and team for highlighting the CSE. They made the nation AWARE. For that, they have done well. Could they have done it differently? I am not here to judge. They have been crucified enough. For now, let’s move on from being merely aware, to being proactive to protect our children. Let conservative values – the values still held by the majority of Singaporeans regardless of race, language or religion, be upheld.
By the way, stop telling me that the doubtful sections only took 1 ½ min, as compared to half hour of teaching something more wholesome. How much cyanide is needed to kill? Compare this to the water we drink daily. Is there any comparison at all?.
I am not from AWARE, past or present, am not from COOS, am a Christian and a parent. The views here are strictly personal. And i do have gay friends so i am no homophobe. Nor do I ostracise friends who choose to cohabitate instead of getting married. They are adults and God has given us a freedom of choice. Do they know my views – yes – though i do not ram it down their throats. We are friends regardless of our differences.
Filed under: Comprehensive Sexual Education?, Uncategorized | Tags: AWARE, Comprehensive Sexual Education?, CSE, gay, homosexuality. homosexuals, lesbian, lesbianism, sex education
I sometimes go to http://tampinescourt.blogspot.com/ because i am interested in enbloc issues. Incidentally I am pro enbloc – so i do not necessarily agree with the blog writer’s opinions. But here is the beauty of agreeing to disagree – I can read her posts and not get angry. As a mother she has written a piece not about AWARE but about their Comprehensive Sex Education. I applaud her for doing so and I agree with what she has to say. Let me give the link to their CSE programme manual – and I am sure many parents will be concerned if this is taught to children in their early teens.http://voicethread.com/#q.b468061.i2489074
Here are some of my thoughts.
Pg 13
1. Similarly pain can be positive or negative. It becomes positive when their is mutual consent and pleasure.
Err – since when is pleasure a marker of positive activity? So many kids are already cutting themselves. Should they say they feel pleasure while doing so, does that make it all right? Mutual consent makes things all right? Even if the parties are young and may not have thought issues through properly? What sort of criteria is that?
2. The table on page 13 shows some positive, neutral and negative terms. Foreplay for instance is considered positive as is the condom, and the homosexuality is neutral as is the pill. First and foremost, positive for whom, neutral for whom? When you say foreplay is positive, what are you telling these young children? Do they need to know about foreplay at this age? Isn’t it more important to help them understand basic concepts of sexuality? And the condom and pill – how can they be positive or even neutral at this stage? The pill tampers with the hormonal system, and surely it cannot be good for growing girls?
3. Anal sex can be healthy or neutral if practiced with consent and with a condom.
Healthy is not a neutral word. Healthy is good. We all want to be healthy. What are we saying to the kids?
4. People might place pre-marital sex as negative, but it is actually neutral…
So much has been said about Christians being intolerant. But isn’t this manual intolerant of my views as well? How can a trusted trainer be allowed to teach this? I can imagine the tussle and fight between an already hormonal, and possibly tantrumy teenager who has just been taught this and a parent who preaches abstinence – and its not only Chrisitans who do this.
5. Then there is the sex is fun concept. We all want fun don’t we? Why are we teaching kids that sex is fun? What are we telling them about sex? What is the importance of this? Kids are struggling with physical changes, their sense of morality is being challenged daily. Ok – let’s not talk about sex. Watching TV or playing computer games is fun. Do we need to teach them that? Isn’t it more important to teach them self-control?
The list goes on. Read the blog I mentioned and you can see her reaction.
It is strange how when we stand up our views are considered intolerant. How tolerant are the people who wrote this programme over our views?
Derrick wrote a comment under AWARE, BEWARE about his stance. He talked about how even though the new EXCO seemed to have taken helm in a high-handed fashion, he is still applauding for their making known this issue.
To put in a fair word for the new EXCO, if I am concerned about an issue, and passionately so, where do I look for support – from my circle – naturally. So how is it surprising if a few of them come from the same church? It was also the old guard who threw the gauntlet regards their stands re homosexuality. It is not the only thing AWARE does, so why only challenge them on this one stand? They did not say they will not act on behalf of women who suffer abuse did they? Why is it seen as a religious issue? Many voices against the CSE are not coming from the Christian community.
My children are grown, and are sensible. I thank God for them. When they were young, I controlled their tv watching habits. Programmes that promoted premarital sex, multiple sexual partners, adultery, I either did not allow, or I allowed to watch with some guidance. My children did not grow up warped. They were not deprived. Many times, such programmes make sex look so cool, and those who do not participate look so nerdy. That is selling the wrong product. Now that they are grown, I no longer need to exercise this sort of control – the values have been laid down – and it is time for them to take their own decisions. Should they deviate from the paths I have taught them, it will cost me pain. But I will not love them any less. Similarly, I have friends who do not practice what I believe in. I love them nonetheless- but my stand is plain. They accept me for who I am and vice versa. They do not need my approval to do what they do. This is tolerance. I cannot impose my beliefs on them, but that does not mean i do not make my beliefs known.
Also, I want to talk about “genetics” and sexual orientation. Nature has created male and female sexual organs to complement each other – its natural. As for whether there is a gene for homosexuality – well scientists are looking for genes for serial killers, or paedophiles. In fact, the bible says that men have a bent towards sinning. So we all have a sin “gene” if you like. Using genetics to explain homosexuality and tolerance of it does not hold water.
By the way, there is a petition http://www.ipetitions.com/petition/parents_sex_ed_appeal/where we can sign our protest re this education programme. Its really not about AWARE or new EXCO or old – its about what we want our children to learn.
Filed under: Women Drivers | Tags: driving problems, parking problems, Women Drivers
Another hilarious one! I kinda laugh at myself too when i watch this
Filed under: how to get ready and have breakfast in five minutes
I think from now on I will add really cool stuff. This one is really neat – and has lots of innovative ways for guys especially who are perpetually in a hurry. Err – must be quite agile and flexible though. Enjoy
